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I’m tired with the world

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The title speaks for itself but it doesn’t tell why, so I’ll fill in the gaps.

I’m done with the world.

Due to High Sensitivity made unbearable by neurological issues, chronic inflammations, chronic pain and chronic stress… I’m just done.

I’m no longer going to worry about people, wars, planet Earth, social issues, whatever.

That doesn’t mean I’m embracing the ‘dark side’, it just means I’ll stop worrying: if food in the fridge goes bad or people beat each other down in the street, I’ll be at least faking (to myself) that I don’t care. I don’t need the extra stress.

And let’s not talk about world events: they are bigger than me, more than I could ever do something for, so I’m really not going to care anymore.

Again, I don’t need the extra stress and the less I’m exposed to humanity’s worst, the better mental stability I can keep.

(Besides, I can only act on something which I can reach by hand or voice and is safe for me to act upon, possibly from the backstage.)

I have me to care for; me, a mentally fragile person with physical issues who ideally should move to the countryside, leave all social media, work only through her business website with email and phone number and, if blogging at all, that would be just about lifelong learning, a subject I’ve always been passionate about.

I’m not sure if this is the end of Luana.me as a blog, but it might just be. Business book reviews? Yes, that might be the next step in blog evolution. I’m just not sure of anything, though.

To end this post with something that underlines the importance of the above statements, below is the social post I sent out to my LinkedIn, BlueSky, Mastodon and Threads networks last week:

Self-reminder:

♣ Enough with allowing sensitivity and empathy make me read socio-political posts on social networks, including YouTube: No of the OPs will be here when I have panic attacks and go mentally unstable.
♣ Enough with reading news and allowing others to tell me world and local news, too!
♣ Enough with giving emotional credit to people who judge and condemn others based on unverified allegations.
♣ I will NOT take the world’s suffering on my fragile shoulders.

Stick to:

☀ Marketing/Business/SEO on LinkedIn
☀ The above + Transformers fandom on BlueSky
☀ Art & Books on Instagram
☀ Art & fandoms on DeviantART

#notetoself #mentalhealth #enoughwiththeworld

Thanks for reading ’til here. Have a nice day.

– Luana

P.S. From now on, anyone who sends me links to world news might get blocked, be warned.

December 2019 – January 2020 Wrap-Up: Health, Wedding Plans, Business Changes

Welcome to the wrap-up post for the month of December 2019 and January 2020.

And 2020 is here, at last. And I’m going to turn 35 this year. Wow.

So, below is a sum-up of the most recent news:

• I’ve been dealing with PTSD from dad’s sudden death in October. The core of the trauma is my failure to accept that I won’t have my dad at my wedding in September, walking me to the altar, sharing that joy with me. But I’m slowly accepting that — and with acceptation come less crises (screams, loud cries, depression). Spiritually, dad will be at my wedding and will walk me to the altar. I forgive you, daddy, for not being there. I forgive myself, too, for being fragile. I forgive us and it’s all good now. I’ll be okay.
• I saw a neurologist on Dec 20 and a psychiatrist on Dec 28 and January 21. They put me on pregabalin 75 mg (to combat micro-seizures and hyperpathia) and lorazepam 1 mg (for general anxiety). On January 21 I was put on paliperidone to fight psychoses. I feel better since.
• Among the things, now I work as a Content Marketer for SIA Enterprises. I work on a project by project basis because I can’t handle even part-time hours or time-tracking with my current health conditions. It’s good, though, because I’m making some business changes so, starting 2021, I can rely more on my own products than on client projects.
• I have Marketing books and SEO comics in the planning, as well as a continued SciFi projects as an artist with my friend Lia Dospetti. Things are good.
• I’m open for art commissions (see my DeviantART page for commission rates and formats). First come, first serve. 😉

So, all considered, things are looking up. 🙂 I hope 2020 started great for you, too!

Read on for the updates in detail.

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September-November 2019 Wrap-Up: Wedding, Programming, Reads & Work

Welcome to the wrap-up post for the months of September through November 2019.

Only one month to go until the end of this year. I can’t believe we’re already entering the second decade of the 21st Century.

Here’s a sum-up of the news (not a happy one):

• My father died on Oct 16, 2019. In the end, while leukemia was about to lose the war, complications from therapies won him over. I know he’s with God now, but I miss him like crazy and knowing that I won’t have my darling father to walk me to the altar the next year… breaks my heart.
• I started on a new hemorrhoid therapy and it’s giving results. Because PSAS was caused by internal hemorrhoid compression of a group of sacral nerves… I suffer from fewer PSAS crises now (but they’re still not so easy to cope with; I’m still grateful for the improvement anyway.)
• It’s a bad time to be a freelance copywriter, as there seems to be some ongoing market crisis and I have been with little to no work since August. I keep trying, but right now I can’t seem to be able to see the end of the tunnel…
• … BUT I may have found a Content Marketing client. We might get started in December and I may stay with them long term.

In spite of the grieving and work-related despair, below I listed the stuff I’ve done September to November this year. Never give up, right?

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